What do I Know?

♪I think I made You too small. I've never feared You at all...then I caught a glimpse of who You might be, the slightest hint of You brought me down to my knees♫ -Addison Road "What Do I Know of Holy"

The first time I heard this song it hit me like a ton of bricks. There is soooooooo much depth to this song and so much truth to be brought into light. Basically the whole song is about God being so much bigger than we can ever imagine.

People say that God has a sense of humor, and I definitely agree based on numerous situations in which I have encountered God in my life. Personally, I like to think I have God figured out, but He he never fails to prove me wrong. I picture Him sitting on His throne looking down at me and saying, "Haha, Kayla. That's cute that you think you know me and have it all figured out, but watch this..." He then proceeds to blow my mind with His awesomeness. He is constantly reminding me that He is in control and that I am not. It is so easy to push God to the side and to forget how much of a necessity He is, until that moment when everything is falling apart and we have no where to run except to Him. It is at these points in our lives that we are reminded how much we need Him.

The chorus of this song is all questions. "What do I know of You who spoke me into motion? Where have I even stood but the shore along Your ocean? Are You fire? Are You fury? Are You sacred? Are You beautiful? So what do I know, what do I know of holy?" If we are honest with ourselves, all of us can answer all of these questions with just one answer. That answer is "I don't know". What do we know of God? We may know stories, we may know Him as a father or as a savior, but in the vastness of it all we really know nothing. This realization was quite hard for me to swallow. I thought I knew God backwards and forwards, but He has shown me otherwise.

Now here's the good thing...we're not supposed to know. We're not supposed to know or understand the mysteries of God. That's why they are mysteries. In college, you respect professors because (for the most part) they know more than you do. They can teach you. However, when you graduate, who says that they are any better than you are? If you get a doctorate degree in chemistry, the next guy that has the same degree is on the same level as you. You know the same stuff. The same is true with the mysteries of God. If He told us all the stuff He knew, not only would we would put ourselves on a status equal to Him, but we may find ourselves caught up in how great we are and lose focus of how wonderful He is.

Here's the reality, God is bigger than anything we can ever dream up.  He is more powerful than anyone we can every imagine. And lastly, He is more loving than we could ever deserve. His love is all encompassing and we often fail to remember that fact.