I challenge you to take the time to look back on where you have been and examine how life has unfolded differently from how you thought it would. Always strive to be moving up to become a better you.
Sunday, July 14, 2013
On the Up and Up
♪Cause I'm on the up and up...I haven't given up, given up on what I know I'm capable of. I'm on the up and up and now there's nothing left to prove. Cause I'm just trying to be a better version of me for You, a better version of me for You♫ -Relient K "Up and Up"
I have loved Relient K for a long time and I was lucky enough to be able to see them in concert last week. This was the only song they played that I did not know. How I had missed this song is beyond me. It sums up so much that is going on in my life right now. My paths have changed in more ways than I thought, and I have ended up places (physically, mentally, and spiritually) that I never thought I would be, but it is all for the better. I cannot really say what "better" is because just when I think I have a goal of "better" on the horizon, God changes what my perspective of "better" is. It is rarely a dramatic 180 degree change, but it is usually just a shift in direction or way of thinking and it is a continuous molding into making me who I am supposed to be. I am slowly making progress to becoming a better me, but I will never be done. I am on the "Up and Up" and it is a continuous struggle, blessing, frustration and prayer that I am becoming better...whatever that may mean.
I challenge you to take the time to look back on where you have been and examine how life has unfolded differently from how you thought it would. Always strive to be moving up to become a better you.
I challenge you to take the time to look back on where you have been and examine how life has unfolded differently from how you thought it would. Always strive to be moving up to become a better you.
Wednesday, July 10, 2013
Collapsible Lung
♪I'm getting by with my collapsible lung and it's a good time 100 percent of the time and I'm like a ladder with a missing rung. It's a slow climb headed back to the sky and I'm feeling backwards when I'm trying the most, and I hope I haven't head the last words from the Holy Ghost 'cause I think that I'm supposed to be well on my way by now♫ -Relient K "Collapsible Lung"
One of my favorite bands recently put out a new album and above are the lyrics to one of my favorite songs off the album. I had been wanting to blog recently, but (as I will explain in this blog) I have not had much time.
Where to start? I'll give the short version...
Three months ago I was sitting in my apartment in Rock Hill and was doing nothing but watching Netflixs, working out, and taking naps. School was not on my radar due to my easy classes and Senioritis. I was making plans to move back to Aiken and to try to find a job since I had not gotten into the occupational therapy program at the Medical University of South Carolina or the Medical College of Georgia. However, my life was flipped upside down in a matter of hours. Two weeks before graduation, I received and email saying that I had been accepted at MUSC for their program. I had 24 hours to decide if I wanted to accept their offer. I literally made my mind up 20 different times going back and forth between taking it and not taking it, seeing how I would be away from my family, hometown, and I would start school in a month from that day and had nothing done in preparation, I leaned towards not taking it. I used every decision making skill I had and talked to so many people. So here I am sitting in the first floor of the library in Charleston as I write this blog post. My life in the past 10 weeks has been consumed with doctors offices, paperwork, studying, moving, stress, tears, and meeting people. Blogging has been the last thing on my mind.
Throughout a lot of this, the above lyrics have been important to me. God has really taught me that I cannot do things in my own strength; that my confusion and distraught was a teaching tool and a test of faith in His plans. He has provided and humbled me. He has taught me that I can only live day to day. That when I feel inadequate and I am just getting by with a broken body, mind, and soul at times, He has wonderful things planned and life is a wonderful gift that I get to experience. Between the stress and joy, I am blessed with opportunities of a lifetime. Lastly, just when I think God is possibly done with me, that his final plans are in place and I'm just along for the ride from here on out, that He is not done with me. I find myself hoping that He is not done with me, and knowing that He is not.
I challenge you to look back and find places where you were in distress and everything seemed to fall together. These moments are where I encounter God most.
Where to start? I'll give the short version...
Three months ago I was sitting in my apartment in Rock Hill and was doing nothing but watching Netflixs, working out, and taking naps. School was not on my radar due to my easy classes and Senioritis. I was making plans to move back to Aiken and to try to find a job since I had not gotten into the occupational therapy program at the Medical University of South Carolina or the Medical College of Georgia. However, my life was flipped upside down in a matter of hours. Two weeks before graduation, I received and email saying that I had been accepted at MUSC for their program. I had 24 hours to decide if I wanted to accept their offer. I literally made my mind up 20 different times going back and forth between taking it and not taking it, seeing how I would be away from my family, hometown, and I would start school in a month from that day and had nothing done in preparation, I leaned towards not taking it. I used every decision making skill I had and talked to so many people. So here I am sitting in the first floor of the library in Charleston as I write this blog post. My life in the past 10 weeks has been consumed with doctors offices, paperwork, studying, moving, stress, tears, and meeting people. Blogging has been the last thing on my mind.
Throughout a lot of this, the above lyrics have been important to me. God has really taught me that I cannot do things in my own strength; that my confusion and distraught was a teaching tool and a test of faith in His plans. He has provided and humbled me. He has taught me that I can only live day to day. That when I feel inadequate and I am just getting by with a broken body, mind, and soul at times, He has wonderful things planned and life is a wonderful gift that I get to experience. Between the stress and joy, I am blessed with opportunities of a lifetime. Lastly, just when I think God is possibly done with me, that his final plans are in place and I'm just along for the ride from here on out, that He is not done with me. I find myself hoping that He is not done with me, and knowing that He is not.
I challenge you to look back and find places where you were in distress and everything seemed to fall together. These moments are where I encounter God most.
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