"While it is good that we seek to know the Holy One, it is probably not so good to presume that we ever complete the task." -Dietrich Bonhoeffer "God Is in the Manger: Reflections on Advent and Christmas"
So I haven't had a really heartfelt blog in a while and its been for a few reasons.
#1-I am a SENIOR in college and have been busy trying to figure out plans for the rest of my life (and 3 months from now). When I have not been planning, I have just been worrying or fine-tuning my senioritis with Netflixs, naps, or trips to the gym.
#2-I have felt really inadequate about talking about God recently. No, it's not because I've fallen in my faith or had some sort of major traumatic event that has changed my relationship with God. The opposite has actually happened. I have learned about God so much in the past 8 months or so. I have found new ways to encounter, love, and serve Him and I have dug into his word like never before. The main thing that the past few months have taught me about God is how much I know about Him. The sum of everything I know about God is..........nothing...and that is becoming more and more apparent everyday. I am restlessly searching to know God better and more deeply and yet the more I find out, the more I find that I do not know. I am stuck in this paradox of knowing that the more I know about God, the more questions I will have and the less I will know in the grand scheme of things. Despite how frustrating it sounds (and it can be at times), it is a blessing to know that I have a God that is so far from anything I can comprehend and that because of this, I have faith that He knows better than I do. He is an unfathomable, loving Creator who loves me and, even though I cannot understand him, I rest in security that He understands me and my struggles and He knows my heart.
I simply challenge you to step back and examine what you do (or do not) know about God.
